Episode 12

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6th Sep 2026

Episode 12 - People Pleasing

Oh Shit, I’m a People Pleaser

What happens when being helpful, accommodating, and “easy” becomes so ingrained that you don’t even realize you’re abandoning yourself?

In this episode, we dive into the messy reality of people pleasing; where it comes from, what’s underneath it, and what it can cost us: our boundaries, our intuition, our relationships, our joy, and ultimately, our sense of self.

We talk about fear, rejection, conflict, resentment, and the uncomfortable process of learning to trust ourselves again. Because choosing yourself doesn’t always feel good. Sometimes it looks like guilt. Sometimes it means disappointing someone. And sometimes it means saying no without explaining yourself into the ground.

This isn’t about shaming the ways we learned to survive. It’s about recognizing the patterns, reclaiming the power we gave away, and remembering that choosing yourself isn’t selfish it’s coming home to yourself.

Want to keep the conversation going? Come join us in the Kula community at www.findyourkula.com. We’d love to hear your stories, your experiences, and what this conversation brings up for you

Mentioned in this episode:

Adriana's Outro

Intro with music

Provided by Jonathon Wilde

Transcript
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Audio Only - All Participants: Here we go.

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Let's go.

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Ow.

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That's funny.

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What's up, guys?

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We're back.

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Hello.

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Hello, ladies.

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How are we?

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We are, well- You know the drill.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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I…

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No, I'm good.

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I'm, I'm having a good day.

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I listened to music all day long.

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I was dancing, folding laundry,

like, you know, cooking,

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washing dishes, dancing all day.

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Nice.

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Yeah.

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I mean, except for the,

you know, the smoke.

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I mean, that's annoying, and I hope

it moves before the weekend 'cause,

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you know, it's blocking my sun.

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Fucker.

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Yeah.

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Can't these things happen in

the winter when I don't care?

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Canada's on fire- … but we are

mostly concerned about the beach day.

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If anybody that knows me knows

that I hate when my sun is blocked.

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Even if you're standing in front

of me, I'm like, "Can you move?

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You're blocking my sun."

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Well, we're off to a great start.

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Um.

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She's like, "Sorry your

country's on fire."

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I'm so, I'm so sorry.

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Wind, blow it a different direction.

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Because it's blocking my sun.

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Yeah.

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Thank you.

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Yeah.

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The hell?

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How are you two doing?

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Undecided.

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Um, no, I'm just…

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I am, uh- Oh … I am

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I have done, I have attempted, I

shouldn't say I've done 'cause that

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sounds like I've been successful.

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I've attempted too much

tax- task switching today-

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Mm … and my brain is tired.

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Mm.

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But, like, my, my body is not, but

just my brain is tired, so Hopefully

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we can still string together

some coherent thoughts tonight.

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That would be great.

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Oh.

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I don't doubt that for a second.

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We'll do our best.

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And how much fun will it be if you can't?

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We'll just tease you relentlessly.

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More general fuckery, you know?

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Right, exactly.

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Right on.

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How about you, Sloane?

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Hmm.

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I haven't thought about it.

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Good, I guess.

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Um, my kiddo is here having EC

issues, so- Oh … they spent the

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night with their little one, their

little harvest kitty, my grandchild

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that I don't get to see anymore.

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Aw.

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Um, so that's been fun.

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And yeah, just work and stuff.

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Nothing.

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Things are good.

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I have a new mantra

about irritating- Share

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people and/or situations, which

is, um, "Is this important

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enough to put in my cup?"

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Mm.

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Or to take up space in my cup.

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Ooh.

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I like that.

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And so far it's pretty

effective, I can say.

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Plus, I'm treating myself

like I treat my dogs, right?

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So when I start getting

irritated I'm like, "I love you."

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Aw.

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That's what I say to them

when they're irritating me.

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You're so cute.

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I love you.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, right.

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Lucky.

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Like, you're lucky you're cute.

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I feel like I need to get that mantra

tattooed, like, on my forearm where

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I can see it 100,000 times a day.

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Like, is this important enough

to take up space in my cup?

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Yeah.

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And the answer 99% of

the time would be no.

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Yeah.

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I could use that one while driving.

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I li- Good call.

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Gonna put that, gonna

put that on my dashboard.

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Yeah, right.

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With a clear film just so

you can read the letters.

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Yes.

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It's not obstructing your view.

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Just look up.

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If you had the, one of those

fancy cars you could have it

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display on the windshield, right?

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Like- That's what I'll do.

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I'll make it the screensaver on my- In-

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CarPlay.

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Instead of your…

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When you honk your horn it doesn't

honk your horn- No, you press a

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button … it pops up on the screen.

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"Is this important enough

to take up space in my cup?"

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Right.

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Don't honk.

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Oh, man.

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Well- All right.

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This, it has been zero days

since our last nonsense.

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Right.

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If you know that, if you

know, you know the reference.

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Oh, man.

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All right.

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Well, , the topic for

today is people pleasing.

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Yeah, it's a big one.

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So I'm just gonna get right

into it with the questions.

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Um- Okay, dive in.

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I'm gonna just dive in.

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So when did you first realize

you were people pleasing?

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Was there a moment or was it something

that you recognized over time?

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Anyone?

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Bueller?

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I, I, I was gonna talk and then Erica

looked like she was gonna talk, and

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then so I stopped, and then she's

like, "No, I'm not gonna say anything."

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So, um, there was not a

specific moment at all.

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I'm like, when did I realize

I'm a people pleaser?

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Like, it, it was so slow and gradual-

Mm … that it was more like-

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It just still, it doesn't even

feel like it was a realization.

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Do you know what I mean?

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Like, it was more an

understanding of m- about myself.

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Does that make sense?

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Yeah, I can't even pinpoint, like, the

moment when I first even heard the term

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or the definition of people pleasing,

because I don't think I would've, like…

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There would've been no way for

me to identify it or articulate

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it before I learn- before I,

like, had the language for it.

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But I, but I think I can say with

a fair bit of certainty that once

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I learned, there were very many,

like, "Oh, shit" moments, right?

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Like, "Oh, I've…

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Oh, and that time that I did that

thing or I said that thing, or how

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I used to do this all the time."

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Like, there was probably a lot of,

like, reflection and trying to figure

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out why that pattern was there for me.

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Like, where did I learn that?

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Where did I pick that up?

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How did I- Mm … like, how

was it reinforced, right?

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So I don't like, while there was

definitely like one specific moment

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where there was the first time I saw

it on paper and I was like, "Oh, shit."

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But, but then there were like 1,000 other

oh shits after that, you know what I mean?

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So, still.

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I I don't, um…

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Yeah, I don't think there was a first

time I realized I was a people pleaser.

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I think on some level I knew I was

people pleasing, but it's funny because

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I could recognize it in other people.

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Mm.

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Just not in myself.

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Say more about that.

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Oh.

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I could just pi- I could just

recognize it in other people.

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Like, they were doing something, I'm like,

"Oh, they're people pleasing," right?

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But like, it was more like

surface level people pleasing.

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It wasn't like, you know, when it goes

a little deeper, because obviously

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then I realized that it was me.

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I think, I think when I realized,

and I think I knew on some

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level, because I always felt

uncomfortable, but did it anyway- Mm

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um, whatever it was.

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And, um, but I think I really

realized- How much I people-pleased

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was Once I got divorced Yeah Right?

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Because then that's, that's really,

like, right, going through that

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process is when I really started

to look within and be more, um,

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introspective and self-reflective.

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And then that's when

I was like, "Oh, shit.

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I'm a people pleaser, and

I didn't even know it."

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So it's funny how, yeah, again,

recognizing it in other people,

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but, um, not myself deep- you know,

on, on a, on a much deeper level

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I think the title of this episode needs

to be, "Oh Shit, I'm a People Pleaser."

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That probably is better.

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Oh, shit.

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So do you think that is something

that you learned growing up or

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something that developed later in life?

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I think it was definitely

a learned behavior

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And like, this is funny.

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I don't, I don't know if I've ever

tried to like pinpoint the exact origins

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of my people-pleasing tendencies.

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I think it was, it's because it

was, like, reinforced, right?

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Mm-hmm.

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Like, being, being flexible and

being accommodating and being

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adaptable was, like, praised.

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Um, and I think I always had Well,

I probably didn't always have, but

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somewhere along the way I learned that

hypervigilance of, like, always scanning

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and trying to be aware of, like, cues

in the room and figure out how I could

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control the temperature of the room.

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Do you know what I mean?

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Yeah, I feel like similar to that,

the hypervigilance piece, mine is

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like kind of like a split thing.

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Like, I feel like part of it is my

being a highly sensitive person.

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I didn't like people being upset.

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Because that hurt my heart to know

that I had upset them, so I didn't

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even see it as people pleasing.

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But the other half was definitely

more of a survival thing.

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Like- Right … how can

I make sure I'm safe?

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I have to keep them happy, right?

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So I, right.

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So I, I think I constantly, like,

justified the The sacrifices maybe,

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or like the accommodations, because

I thought that I was helping.

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And I feel like in a way that was

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I hate to say it this way because

I don't wanna glamorize it, but it

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was, like, weirdly empowering to

feel like you could- Mm … help

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people feel better all the time.

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And so I sort of, like, wore that

as a badge of honor, and I don't…

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Like, so when you say, like,

was it something you learned?

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Was it, like, when did you

first realize you were doing it?

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I realize it all in retrospect-

Yeah … because I would've thought that

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it was a positive behavior most of my

life because I was the helper, right?

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Like, I was the, I was the, the

one who was always trying to, like,

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kind of control the situation.

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And in retrospect, I realize how

much of an impact that had on me and

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how unhealthy that actually was and

how it contributed to, like, other

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unhealthy relationship dynamics.

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I, I feel like, I mean, for me

it's obvi- definitely learned.

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I, I feel also, you know, I mean, I don't

wanna say just women, but women definitely

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are taught that a lot, but men too, right?

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It's just, it just plays out differently.

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Well, I was gonna say that before.

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I feel like it ties right into

all the things we've talked

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about with conditioning.

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It's definitely conditioned, and it's, a-

and I, I feel like everyone's conditioned.

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It's some people…

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I think that some people just learn

to have boundaries, and maybe n-

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might not people please or might give

in to some things less than others.

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But, like, a true people pleaser

just isn't gonna have any.

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I feel like, I, I feel like I was

taught to not have any boundaries.

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So I was, always had to do and

put everyone before me, and- It's

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just easier to go along with it.

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It's just easier to not ask questions.

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It's just easier to, you know,

to- It is, but it never felt good.

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N- no.

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It did not- And- … feel good … but

the, but the language, the way

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that it was reinforced- Mm-hmm

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'cause that's what I was saying, like,

you receive, like, praise for it because

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you're, you know- I guess you're k- it's

like you're the sacrificial lamb, but,

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like, but you're, like, making these

accommodations so as not to rock the boat.

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So it's by not asking questions or

challenging it or having boundaries- Yeah

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you're making everyone else's

lives easier, and of course

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I don't wanna be a burden.

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That's, like, the last

thing I wanna be, right?

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Like, we've talked a lot about that

and, like, the struggle to ask for

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help, the, like, the one who's always

reliable but could never rely on anybody.

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I'm just, I'm just trying to think

about, you know, you're saying, like,

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you get rewarded for it, and I'm

sitting here thinking, like, I don't

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feel like I was ever rewarded for it.

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Like, I don't- Ah, I was praised for it.

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Oh, praised.

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There was no- That's the

word you used, yeah, praised.

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I don't- Yeah … feel like I was.

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It was just more like that's

what you have to do, right?

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For me, it was always more,

uh- It was the expectation.

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You know?

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Like, it was just a responsibility put

on me, like, that's what you have to do.

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Now, like, if you do this then, you

know, you're the good girl, and I

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never, it never felt that way to me.

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But to me the reward was-

More calmer The peace Yes.

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Yes.

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See, that's so funny 'cause, ah

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I could, I could swallow my own inner

turmoil as long as everyone else

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around me was okay Oh, I had such

a hard time with that I had so…

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I mean, like, I did it, but I

had such a hard time with it.

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, … In my household it was a power struggle.

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And then I think that's what cemented

it for me to continue doing that as

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an adult, 'cause it goes to the whole

thing of me being told what to do and

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I don't like it, and I never liked it.

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You know, even, like, as a child.

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So, um, I would always fight back.

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Like, I would always fight

back on whatever it was because

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I didn't like that feeling.

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But I mean- Those, those

fights stayed up here for me.

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I would think of all the things I wished

I could say or I wished I could do-

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Yeah … but I would never vocalize it.

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But I would do it because I

felt that I had to, right?

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I had to do it because, right,

like it would keep harmony.

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I knew it wouldn't because, like I

said, I'm, I'm confrontational, right?

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Like, I'm, I'm, I'm cool with,

like, if I don't like what you

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say, I'm gonna tell you, right?

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Like, I don't have a problem saying that.

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But then it's always been,

"No, don't, don't say that."

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And to me, that's how I learned to

people please, was to keep my mouth shut.

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And that's like putting

a lion in a cage, right?

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Because eventually I was going to

fucking explode and let everyone have it.

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So it came out eventually,

but- Oh … um- No.

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But I still did it.

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Like, I still, you know, it was

still ingrained in me to do it.

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So yeah, it's

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It's funny 'cause I, I li- I like

talking to them She's, she's been

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a rebel since she was little.

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I have.

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And that- My rebellion is new.

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I've always had a fire sign.

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She's a fire sign.

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She's a fire sign.

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Yeah.

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And Mercury.

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Hello?

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Right.

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That's all.

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Well, I have- That's how I express myself

… I have Mercury fire, too, but- Yeah

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it's in the 12th house, so.

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Yeah, no.

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Yeah, mine's not hidden.

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Um- Um, go ahead.

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Yeah, no, it's just…

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I- well, it's funny because,, I, I,

I didn't sit with this topic before

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we discussed it today, you know?

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So I'm really kind of- Figuring

out as I go along right now.

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Um- Processing in the moment.

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Yeah, yeah

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so looking back now, what do you

think, um, was really happening

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beneath the surface for you?

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Fear.

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Agreed.

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I agree with that.

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That's it.

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Okay.

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And, and the fear was, like, multifaceted.

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Oh, yeah.

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Like I was gonna say, for e-

both of the scenarios I presented

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earlier were fear-based.

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It wasn't…

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Yeah The fear for me was, like,

being the difficult one, because I

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got praised for being easy, right?

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Mm-hmm.

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Like, I, I didn't wanna

be the difficult child.

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I wanted to just follow the rules

and, you know, do the things 'cause-

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Mm-hmm … that's what I got praised for.

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So there's fear of, like, that.

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It was fear of what would happen

if I didn't do the people-pleasing

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thing, because there were a few

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uh, adults with no command of emotional

regulation- Mm … in my life, right?

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… So I, like, I took it upon myself.

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It was, I, I don't necessarily think

that it was expected of me beyond

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that, like, there was constant

reinforcement around like, "Gosh,

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you're so easy," "So, so easy."

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You know, that.

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But I don't, but I, but I learned

it because I was trying to- Mm

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always, like, assess risk, and, and notice

signs, and watch for when something was

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gonna go from, like, zero to 60, right?

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Mm-hmm.

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And then move accordingly.

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So there was fear of that.

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Like, fear of the consequences

if I don't, if I don't try

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to control all these things.

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Right.

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Fear of how I'd be perceived.

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'Cause I don't wanna be any,

like, I don't wanna be a burden.

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I don't wanna be difficult.

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I don't wanna cause anybody

else any, you know, whatever.

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A troublemaker.

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Yeah, I was, I was the opposite of that.

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Yeah.

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Me too.

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I, so I s- something similar for me,

I feel like I, fear of rejection.

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Mm.

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Because- Yes … because I, , if

I spoke up, then I'm too much, I'm

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disrespectful, you know, I'm nasty.

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You know?

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There it is.

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I mean, my mom never learned that word

in English, so she didn't say that to me.

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But, um, but disrespectful, right?

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Like, that's the one, that's the

one word that always comes back to

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me when, uh, with anything my mom.

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Like, that, she would always

say to me when she wanted me

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to, like, you know- Mm-hmm

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stay in line, was that

I'm being disrespectful.

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But besides, besides my mom, I feel

like, um, in general I've been too

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much for the wrong people, and so

it's always that fear of rejection.

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So that's why I would always just

more comply with things, or keep

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quiet, or not, you know, not speak

my mind because it's too much.

421

:

And then, and then also- Okay … , um,

I think it's also being, again, being

422

:

responsible for others' emotions,

so that played a big part too.

423

:

You know?

424

:

Right.

425

:

And it, like, for me, the, that fear

of rejection also meant that, like, I

426

:

wouldn't stand up for myself- Mm … or

challenge or question anything, because

427

:

there was also a fear of conflict, right?

428

:

'Cause, like- Mm … the conflict that

I witnessed was, like, explosive and-

429

:

Right … never ended well, and right?

430

:

So I think that since that was the

only thing I ever saw, I never saw,

431

:

like, what does it look like to

have a productive disagreement, a

432

:

constructive disagreement, right?

433

:

So, like, the only thing

that I ever saw was that.

434

:

Yeah.

435

:

So I would avoid that at all

costs- Mm … which really led

436

:

to people-pleasing tendencies.

437

:

Like, I just don't want

there to be conflict.

438

:

Yeah.

439

:

I mean, that's what avoidance is, right?

440

:

Right.

441

:

People pleasing.

442

:

Yeah.

443

:

Yeah.

444

:

I mean, I can relate to the whole

explosive arguments and all that, but

445

:

because at 12 years old I took it upon

myself, and it was kind of put on me

446

:

too, um, to take care of my mom, right?

447

:

Mm-hmm.

448

:

Like, I defended my mom my whole life.

449

:

So I didn't have a problem with

conflict because I was always in the

450

:

middle of it, and she allowed that.

451

:

You were at the front lines of it.

452

:

Yeah, totally.

453

:

Yeah, I was like, "Oh, we're fighting?

454

:

Okay.

455

:

I'm c- I'm coming down."

456

:

You know?

457

:

"Oh, there's a fight?

458

:

Okay, I'm going."

459

:

So, um- I, I, I forgot

where I was going with this.

460

:

Avoidance?

461

:

No, I wouldn't avoid.

462

:

Oh, yeah.

463

:

You know?

464

:

Like, that was- That was it … for

me, I wouldn't, I wouldn't avoid.

465

:

I would jump right into it,

but then it was like, you know

466

:

too much.

467

:

Right.

468

:

You know, it was, it, I was,

it was too much when it wasn't

469

:

convenient for them, but when it

was convenient for them it was okay.

470

:

Mm.

471

:

Right?

472

:

When it worked in their favor it was

okay um Uh, what were you most afraid of?

473

:

I think we, we covered this, but what

were you most afraid of that would

474

:

happen if you stopped people pleasing?

475

:

Being abandoned.

476

:

Mm-hmm.

477

:

Yeah.

478

:

Be- yeah, being rejected-

Yeah … being abandoned, that

479

:

people would think I was difficult.

480

:

I, uh, yeah, my dad already abandoned

me, so- Mm … am I gonna lose everybody

481

:

else in my life if I'm not perfect?

482

:

I think I always felt like I, like

I was a bad person then, you know?

483

:

If I- Yes … if I didn't people

please, then I'm just a horrible person.

484

:

I, I, I remember feeling that

so much throughout my life,

485

:

and it's an, it's terrible.

486

:

It's such an awful feeling to think that

you're a bad person when all you're doing

487

:

is trying to please everyone around you

and, and, and make them happy 'cause

488

:

you're, you're putting yourself last.

489

:

Mm.

490

:

Yeah.

491

:

Okay, so what did

people-pleasing cost you?

492

:

Your face, Erica.

493

:

' Cause the first thing that came to

mind, and then, like, my whole body

494

:

went numb when I had the thought-

Mm … but the first thing that

495

:

came to my mind is my childhood.

496

:

Mm.

497

:

' Cause I was like the manager.

498

:

Yeah.

499

:

I, I was like the, the kid, like I was,

I tried to be responsible for- Everyone

500

:

and everything around me, and I think

it cost me a lot of my childhood.

501

:

It definitely cost me memories, because

I think I spent so much of my childhood

502

:

dissociated because of the, like, constant

overwhelm of- Yeah … like, all of the

503

:

inputs I was trying to process to be able

to, like- Mm-hmm … manage situations.

504

:

Like, that's how, that's how I've…

505

:

It's one of the things that I've, you

know, tried to talk about in therapy and

506

:

try to figure out of, like, why don't

I have as many memories from childhood

507

:

as so many of the other people I know?

508

:

And I think that I was just in this sort

of, like, constant state of overwhelm

509

:

and,, dissociated from a lot because

I'm already, like, hypersensitive to,

510

:

like, everything, sounds, smells, like-

Mm-hmm … lights, all the things.

511

:

Yeah.

512

:

And so the added inputs of, , trying to

have the emotional and social intelligence

513

:

before I was taught how to do that or,

like, had the skills to do that was a lot.

514

:

Was it like you blocked them?

515

:

Like you blocked your memories ' Cause

you feel like you- I don't know.

516

:

I don't think I like, I, I mean, I

think it's a, I think it's a bit of

517

:

a trauma response to like dissociate

from your body or from like the moment.

518

:

Yeah.

519

:

Absolutely.

520

:

But yeah, I don't, I just

don't have a lot of memories

521

:

And the, like, some of the ones that I

do have are, like, the not great ones.

522

:

Do you know what I mean?

523

:

Like, the- Yeah … I, so there's a

lot of things I don't remember that

524

:

might have even been good experiences.

525

:

But I think even in the good

experiences, I never felt like I could

526

:

relax ' cause I was always, like, so

hypervigilant Like waiting for the other

527

:

shoe to drop, you know what I mean?

528

:

Yeah, 'cause you're so enmeshed-

So I think it, yeah … with other

529

:

people So I think it, I think it just

cost me a lot of like childhood joy.

530

:

Like I don't- Yeah, yeah … I

don't know how else to articulate

531

:

it other than to say that.

532

:

Like, and as, and again, as a result,

like because it, it wasn't something

533

:

that I could name or do anything

about until like later on in my adult

534

:

life, I think it also just cost me a

lot of- Friendships, relationships.

535

:

Mm.

536

:

Like, I think my friendships were

very surface level because I was

537

:

constantly, like, accommodating and

adapting and, like, being a chameleon

538

:

rather than allowing myself to be,

like, truly authentic and be seen

539

:

and develop real relationships.

540

:

You know what I mean?

541

:

Yeah.

542

:

Yeah, that makes…

543

:

I mean, that makes total sense because it,

it, it affects every aspect of your life.

544

:

Yeah.

545

:

'Cause you're not just doing

it in one aspect of your life,

546

:

you're doing it everywhere.

547

:

Right.

548

:

Mm-hmm.

549

:

Yeah.

550

:

What about you, Sloan?

551

:

Um, well, what Erica ended with is

kind of where I was going, was that

552

:

being the chameleon, trying to- Mm.

553

:

Mm … meet everybody else's needs.

554

:

Like, you- Yeah … for me, I

just lost touch with myself.

555

:

Mm-hmm.

556

:

Totally.

557

:

Like, I didn't know- That too … anything

about myself except the bad things.

558

:

Right.

559

:

And how I wasn't enough, good

enough, doing the things, making them

560

:

happy no matter how hard I tried.

561

:

Um- In case you missed it,

check the perfection episode.

562

:

Too right.

563

:

Um- And also, yeah, I

was gonna say childhood.

564

:

I was gonna say happiness.

565

:

Mm-hmm.

566

:

Um, joy- Yeah … feels so fleeting.

567

:

Get, you know what I mean?

568

:

Happiness- Mm … seems a little

bit more achievable, like, in a

569

:

continuous way, if that makes sense.

570

:

Um- It does … so just- I like that

word better … always, you know,

571

:

being on edge, looking, analyzing.

572

:

Yep.

573

:

Risk analysis.

574

:

Um, but yeah.

575

:

Yeah, I mean- Yeah, it was childhood.

576

:

I, I, I- Yeah … feel like I've

always been an old soul, but, uh-

577

:

Yeah … there's definitely a couple

of quantum leaps in there that

578

:

weren't asked for or natural, so.

579

:

Mm.

580

:

Yeah.

581

:

I, I…

582

:

for me, I mean, I agree with all of you.

583

:

I feel like I…

584

:

all of you, all that you said.

585

:

There's only two of you.

586

:

Um- The whole, the whole gang

587

:

all of you.

588

:

Me and my five personalities.

589

:

And mine.

590

:

You are a Gemini.

591

:

Right.

592

:

Um- But I, I, yes, I, I also

relate to the childhood and all.

593

:

I, for me, I just feel

like it's my identity.

594

:

Like, my whole identity- Yeah … was

so wrapped up in everybody else-

595

:

Mm-hmm … that I, you know, I

didn't know anything about myself,

596

:

which is why I hated doing so many

things, and one of them was dating.

597

:

Mm.

598

:

I hated dating for that reason, 'cause

don't ask me anything about me, right?

599

:

'Cause I don't fucking know.

600

:

I don't fucking know.

601

:

Oh.

602

:

Oh.

603

:

Yeah.

604

:

It's terrible.

605

:

Like- Well, that connects to what

Sloane said, like the, what did,

606

:

what did you miss out on, or like

what did you, what did it cost you?

607

:

Yeah.

608

:

It's knowing yourself.

609

:

Yeah.

610

:

Because you have had

to like mold and adapt.

611

:

Exactly.

612

:

Ooh, I can relate to that too.

613

:

Yeah.

614

:

I had no clue.

615

:

I had, I had no- Yeah … I mean, I, I

mean- Let's just keep talking about you,

616

:

'cause I don't know anything about me.

617

:

Exactly.

618

:

Exactly.

619

:

And also, keep talking about you

because it's uncomfortable to talk

620

:

about me, 'cause it's al- you're

also told it's, again, everyone else

621

:

before you, so it's always Mm-hmm

622

:

you know, put u- put the others first.

623

:

And so yeah, and I mean, obviously

I knew certain things about myself,

624

:

and definitely the bad ones or

the ones that I thought were bad.

625

:

Exactly.

626

:

Right?

627

:

Exactly.

628

:

But the good qualities about

myself, I mean, they were buried.

629

:

There were none.

630

:

Right.

631

:

I mean, no, there are.

632

:

There were.

633

:

I know.

634

:

They were just buried.

635

:

There were.

636

:

We just had no clue that they were there.

637

:

Yeah.

638

:

Well, we didn't know where they were.

639

:

Yeah.

640

:

And we didn't know that the bad

things about us were actually

641

:

the good things about us.

642

:

Right.

643

:

Exactly.

644

:

So for me, the good things that I

knew are the things that led to,

645

:

like, the perfectionism tendencies.

646

:

Mm.

647

:

Right?

648

:

Like, you're good at, like,

you're a great cheerleader.

649

:

Okay, well, I'm gonna be the best

fucking cheerleader you've ever

650

:

seen in your whole goddamn life.

651

:

Right.

652

:

Because if this is the thing that I'm

gonna get praised for and be known

653

:

for … Like, not to say that I didn't

enjoy that, because I truly did love it.

654

:

I loved it, but it was,

like, those things.

655

:

Like, once I, once I knew the things

that I was really good at, I doubled

656

:

down on those for sure, but then

to the extreme of perfectionism.

657

:

Because if I'm gonna get praised for

something, like that's what it … Right?

658

:

You have it.

659

:

Oh, yeah.

660

:

That's part of what … When we're talking

about, you know, the, the competition we

661

:

just won, everybody in the room is happy.

662

:

Like, we're celebrating, and that

keeps people happy, so that was

663

:

another way to, like, control.

664

:

Mm.

665

:

And we've said control a

lot in episodes- I know.

666

:

Sorry … things coming up about that.

667

:

Right?

668

:

So no, no, just- Spoilers … big preview.

669

:

Yeah.

670

:

Well, it's, it's impossible for

them not to be intertwined, right?

671

:

Yeah.

672

:

Yeah, same with, same with perfectionism.

673

:

I think they're all so

closely related, you know?

674

:

Oh, absolutely.

675

:

We could just alternate…

676

:

Here's another alternative title, title.

677

:

Three, Three Recovering People Pleasers.

678

:

Three Recovering Perfectionists.

679

:

I like the first one better.

680

:

But it made me laugh, so…

681

:

Um.

682

:

Oh, shit, I'm a people pleaser?

683

:

No.

684

:

Yes.

685

:

Oh, shit.

686

:

I think that's way better.

687

:

Yeah.

688

:

I like that.

689

:

I like that.

690

:

I like that title- I will go

with it … so much better than

691

:

just people pleaser, 'cause…

692

:

Um.

693

:

Look at that.

694

:

Even when I'm delirious,

I still have words.

695

:

Yeah, you do.

696

:

I didn't doubt that for one second.

697

:

Um, okay, so-

698

:

When you look back, what's the biggest

thing you wish you hadn't given away?

699

:

My power.

700

:

Mm.

701

:

That that's something I can

only articulate as an adult.

702

:

Like, again, I would have never had

the language for or been able to,

703

:

like, identify that when I was younger.

704

:

I, yeah, I mean, even as an adult,

I wouldn't have been able to

705

:

articulate that until just recently.

706

:

Mm.

707

:

You know?

708

:

Like, just in, since I

started m- my healing journey.

709

:

I didn't, I didn't realize I

was giving my power away at all.

710

:

So yeah, this is the same for me.

711

:

It's just And there's so many

ways that you give your power

712

:

away and you don't realize.

713

:

I mean

714

:

Like

715

:

It's funny how, I mean, I was

having this conversation with a

716

:

friend I know, another friend.

717

:

Word.

718

:

And we, we happened to be talking about

this stuff and, you know, I'm like,

719

:

people just always say yes to things

that they don't w- they wanna say no to.

720

:

I mean, how often, you know, like,

someone says to you, "Come over," or,

721

:

"Let's go over here," and your, and

your first instinct is to say no Right?

722

:

And you feel that, like, that's

a no, but you say yes every time.

723

:

And that's exactly where I was gonna go.

724

:

Originally, I was thinking my

belief in myself, which might be

725

:

kind of a piece of the power thing.

726

:

Mm-hmm.

727

:

But as you were talking, it came up,

and the thing that is, like, gripping

728

:

my guts right now is my intuition.

729

:

Yeah.

730

:

Yeah.

731

:

I gave that away over and over again

until I didn't- Yeah, like, not

732

:

trusting myself … even recognize it.

733

:

Well, but that's exac- that's exactly what

people-pleasing is designed to do, right?

734

:

Right.

735

:

Like, all, ev- all of the things that

you were told as a child, and even as

736

:

an adult, , whether it's, it, you know,

at, at a job or in a relationship or

737

:

a friend or whatever, is designed for

you to just give your power away, just

738

:

to, to ignore that feeling, that gut

feeling that's telling you, giving you

739

:

the answer, and then you immediately

go and you intellectualize it, right?

740

:

Like, you, you go and you think about it.

741

:

Overanalyze.

742

:

Yeah, you analyze it.

743

:

Talk yourself- Exactly like, well, if

I say no- You talk yourself out of it.

744

:

You logic yourself out of it, even though

your intuition is trying to tell you.

745

:

Right, because when you, you

immediately st- wanna say no, and

746

:

then when you say no, for me, it's

like if I say no, I'm a bad person.

747

:

If I say no, I'm a bad friend.

748

:

If I say no, I'm a bad worker, right?

749

:

Like, it's- I'm a troublemaker.

750

:

Right.

751

:

They're gonna leave me.

752

:

They won't wanna be around me.

753

:

I'm difficult.

754

:

It's by design.

755

:

Yeah.

756

:

Right?

757

:

Everything.

758

:

'Cause that keeps you so disconnected from

yourself, which is why at the, you know,

759

:

at the time when you're people-pleasing,

like, you didn't even get to know who you

760

:

were because it was about everybody else.

761

:

Yeah.

762

:

It's, yeah, it's just, um I, it, yeah,

it's something that I, I really try to

763

:

check in with myself now, especially with

my intuition, with how something feels.

764

:

Because it's, it's really…

765

:

I'm not gonna listen to

my head anymore, you know?

766

:

Like, this is what I try not to do.

767

:

But anyway, um- That bitch is crazy.

768

:

Right.

769

:

Um- I was just telling her I loved

her earlier today, 'cause I'm like-

770

:

Right, right … "Girl" I know.

771

:

I gotta, I gotta remember that.

772

:

"What are you thinking?"

773

:

And then I laugh at

myself and it's gone, so.

774

:

So I have another question What

does choosing yourself look

775

:

like now, and what's still hard?

776

:

Trusting myself more Mm

777

:

Being Really rooted in my values

and letting that alongside my

778

:

intuition, like, determine boundaries

779

:

Like I think My boundaries are f- my

boundaries used to probably just be

780

:

like nonexistent, if we're being honest.

781

:

But like- Mm-hmm … on, on my best day

they were too flexible or too porous, um

782

:

They're, they're a lot more firm now

783

:

Yeah.

784

:

I, uh, I mean, I would

agree with that too.

785

:

It's the trusting myself and having

the boundaries, um, are definitely

786

:

What keeps me from people pleasing Mm.

787

:

It's still difficult because

788

:

Guilt Sure.

789

:

It's not easy.

790

:

Yeah.

791

:

But that's just what

choosing myself looks like.

792

:

Right.

793

:

It's always difficult- Yeah … every day.

794

:

But, but 'cause there- Because there's

still so much unlearning to do.

795

:

Yeah, 'cause the guilt

was so powerful, right?

796

:

Like, that was what- Yeah … kept

you people-pleasing was that guilt.

797

:

Yeah.

798

:

And that's, that's, that's what

I've, that's what I … I have the

799

:

boundary, but when that guilt pops up

is when I have to really do the work.

800

:

That's when I really have to lean into my

trust and my boundaries to, like- remember

801

:

that why I don't, why I can say no Is…

802

:

I aspire to be like, do you remember that

episode of Friends when Ross is moving

803

:

and he asks Phoebe to help, and she goes,

"Oh, I wish I could, but I don't want to."

804

:

Like, that's, I aspire to

that level of confidence-

805

:

Right … with boundary setting.

806

:

But, like, we're not, we're not there yet.

807

:

It's still difficult.

808

:

I still have to, like, hype myself up.

809

:

I still have to, remember, like, I

have to notice that guilt or, notice

810

:

that shame that's coming up and,

intentionally, like, check myself

811

:

on it, because it's still hard.

812

:

And also I know that it's like my, again,

I think, I don't know, we've probably

813

:

talked about this before, but like

814

:

I spent so much of my life not trusting

my intuition and not trusting myself

815

:

that there's this, , weird phenomenon

now that, like, once I know something

816

:

to be 100% true for me, like my

window of tolerance is so small.

817

:

And so, like, that part is becoming

easier because I think I, like, like

818

:

I'm, I'm a little bit more, firmly rooted

in what's true for me or what I need.

819

:

Right.

820

:

And also, like, sometimes vocalizing it

or having the conversation is still hard

821

:

because we never know how it's gonna

be received, and there's still, like, a

822

:

little bit of that people pleaser tendency

of, like, well, I need to, like, craft

823

:

the perfect message and, like, say it

exactly the right way to control- Mm-hmm

824

:

the other person's reaction, and

I can't fucking control that.

825

:

But I'm still gonna do my best 'cause

that old habit dies hard, you know?

826

:

Interesting.

827

:

I was gonna…

828

:

Yeah, it's easier for me to

say what's still hard, and I

829

:

was gonna say not justifying.

830

:

Yes.

831

:

Ooh, yes.

832

:

Mm-hmm.

833

:

Ooh, no is a complete sentence.

834

:

Yeah.

835

:

It's really hard for me to just say no.

836

:

It, it, it really is for me too And the

difference between wanting … And it,

837

:

because this is why it's hard for me, the

difference between justifying and sharing

838

:

Right?

839

:

Mm.

840

:

Like, 'cause sometimes I'm explaining

something to you guys, and I'm like,

841

:

to me that's not a justification,

it's illumination, right?

842

:

Like, I'm letting you into my thought

process and, and what's going on, not

843

:

trying to justify my action, which

is different than- Which is different

844

:

than saying, "I'm not available- Right

845

:

that day."

846

:

But still later I'll be like,

"Was I, like, justifying myself?"

847

:

Like- Yeah, yeah … I'm like,

'cause I don't, I don't have to.

848

:

It didn't feel like just- did it

feel like justifica- Like, and then

849

:

I get in my head about it, but, um,

with other people I this is, this is

850

:

honestly what's helping me a little

bit with it, is watching them kind of

851

:

spin out about it when I don't justify.

852

:

They're like, "Oh, what's

gonna happen next?"

853

:

Like- Yeah … because-

Let me get my popcorn.

854

:

It's like, I just said one thing.

855

:

Like, not complicated, not-

Why did this thing happen?

856

:

Because, you know, whatever

the reason, it doesn't matter.

857

:

I mean, like-

858

:

I, I stepped on a rock and I

jumped, and then I hit the thing.

859

:

You know what?

860

:

It doesn't matter.

861

:

Like, oh, because it happened.

862

:

I, oops, I tripped.

863

:

And it'd be like They go up.

864

:

You know, like, where?

865

:

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

866

:

Like, on this journey through why didn't

you, how could you have, or tell me…

867

:

N- not asking a single question, right?

868

:

Like, just telling this elaborate story

or making some kind of judgment about

869

:

whatever happened, and it's like, huh.

870

:

Like

871

:

None of that's over here.

872

:

It's all over there.

873

:

So we're good.

874

:

It's just very interesting sometimes.

875

:

Like- Yeah … learning

that not accepting it.

876

:

Yeah, when you disappoint them, right?

877

:

Like- Yeah … when you disappoint

people and they don't know

878

:

what to do with themselves.

879

:

But also sometimes you do that and

they feel disappointed, and then

880

:

they push you harder, you know?

881

:

Like they'll- Oh, right … they'll

want- That, that gets irritating

882

:

… it's, that's what I'm saying,

like, it's, it's a process, right?

883

:

Because it, for you, for like,

for yourself to, to get better

884

:

at, like, standing your ground-

Yeah … when, when people wanna push

885

:

your boundaries, because they do.

886

:

Exactly.

887

:

'Cause people get really, really

uncomfortable when you've been the

888

:

people pleaser your whole life, and

then you decide that, "Fuck that

889

:

shit, I'm not doing that anymore."

890

:

Right.

891

:

Right?

892

:

Because it just harms me.

893

:

Right.

894

:

And- Yeah … and they're like,

"The fuck is wrong with you?

895

:

What's happening here?

896

:

I don't like this."

897

:

Yeah.

898

:

Um, but you, I've…

899

:

Something that you just said, um Oh

With the whole friends, um, episode,

900

:

I guess it was the same thing that

I was saying is that just being so

901

:

comfortable with saying no and not

worrying about- Yeah … whether you're

902

:

disappointing someone or not, right?

903

:

Like, would love to but-

It's hard … don't want to.

904

:

It is.

905

:

It's hard.

906

:

Yeah.

907

:

I mean, to just say, "I don't want to."

908

:

I just…

909

:

Well, that's maybe a- Yeah … a

level of candor that I have,

910

:

I have not yet achieved.

911

:

But- … I j- but even just saying like-

But I'm just saying it's really difficult

912

:

… like, "No, I'm not available."

913

:

Right.

914

:

"But thank you so much for inviting me."

915

:

Like- Right … don't stop

inviting me to things, but I'm

916

:

not available today, right?

917

:

Like, that's, that's the, that's

the, the boundary, um, for the-

918

:

But also how good it feels when

you actually start saying no.

919

:

Yeah, it does.

920

:

And even though it's so uncomfortable, but

you start saying no and you're like, "Oh."

921

:

I'll take- Like, feel that feeling of,

like, getting your power back is so good.

922

:

So here's, here's what I've started.

923

:

Like, the, the check for me now is because

I think about how much time has been

924

:

wasted in my life either being, like,

mad or resentful or feeling awful after

925

:

I, like, caved- Mm-hmm … or, like,

did the people-pleasing thing, right?

926

:

Mm-hmm.

927

:

Or, like, I went and sat through a dinner

I really didn't wanna go to, right?

928

:

Yeah.

929

:

With, like, people I really didn't

wanna be around, and I just, like,

930

:

white-knuckled my way through it,

and then I came home and I was

931

:

exhausted, and I was, like, burnt out

for three days and had to recover.

932

:

You know what I mean?

933

:

Like- Yeah … when I think about how

much time has been wasted and I…

934

:

Now my trade-off or, like, the thing

that grounds me in that moment is,

935

:

like, I'd rather be uncomfortable for

the 30 seconds it takes me to tell

936

:

you no than the hours I would spend

doing the thing I don't wanna do.

937

:

Mm-hmm.

938

:

Mm-hmm.

939

:

Right.

940

:

Or, like, the days I would need

to recover from that event that

941

:

I don't wanna go to, right?

942

:

Like- Yeah … just knowing myself

more now, I, like, I know the

943

:

trade-off for me is worth it.

944

:

I know it's gonna be, it's gonna be a

little uncomfy for a moment, but it's

945

:

gonna be way worth it in the end because

there have been plenty of times where

946

:

I've been, like, just sitting on my

couch reading my little book or, like,

947

:

watching my little shows thinking like,

"Huh, I was supposed to be at that thing.

948

:

Thank God I'm not there.

949

:

Like, thank God."

950

:

Right.

951

:

Yeah.

952

:

Yeah.

953

:

Exactly.

954

:

Such a homebody.

955

:

And, yeah, and that, that

actually helped me a little bit.

956

:

So what is choosing myself look

like now is, like, v- similar to

957

:

Erica, like, is I ask myself, "Is

this aligned with my values- Mm-hmm.

958

:

Yes … and who I wanna be?"

959

:

Yes.

960

:

And normally there's

the answer right there.

961

:

It- that's why- Yeah … the

values are so powerful.

962

:

They really are.

963

:

Because it's such an easy

filter to pass things through.

964

:

But also who I wanna be.

965

:

Yes.

966

:

Because it might be, 'cause that's

the first filter, does it align

967

:

with my values, but then does

it align with who I wanna be?

968

:

Because- Some of my values

are aspirational though.

969

:

They're not all- That's my point

… firing on all cylinders right now.

970

:

But yeah.

971

:

So I'm saying, well, you know what I mean.

972

:

Yeah.

973

:

And then you can always throw in

a third one Oh, sorry … right?

974

:

Which would be like, do I have

the capacity for this, right?

975

:

Like- Yeah … because sometimes

the answer to the first two is

976

:

a hell yes, but the realistic

schedule maybe is, uh- Mm-hmm … I

977

:

really- The logistics … can't.

978

:

It doesn't matter how much I want it.

979

:

Yeah.

980

:

Not now, but yes.

981

:

My answer is yes, not now.

982

:

Hmm.

983

:

Yeah.

984

:

Yeah I, I wanna, like, maybe…

985

:

I, I think I meant to do this when

we talked about perfection, and

986

:

I wanna, like, maybe wrap on a

slightly more positive note, because

987

:

I don't think that it's all bad.

988

:

No.

989

:

Right?

990

:

Like- No … with perfectionism, there was

a lot that I learned, both because, like,

991

:

because I felt the need to, like, master

things, quote-unquote, like I literally

992

:

learned, like gathered a lot of knowledge,

mastered skills, like things that

993

:

have served me really well in my life.

994

:

And so, like, while there was a lot

of, like, unnecessary pressure and

995

:

shame at parts of that journey, the

outcomes weren't all bad- Right.

996

:

Mm-hmm … because I, I was

able to, like, learn a lot.

997

:

I kind of think the same with

people-pleasing in one specific area.

998

:

You need a party planned?

999

:

I'm your girl.

:

00:46:43,267 --> 00:46:43,377

You're right.

:

00:46:43,377 --> 00:46:45,537

Because I am thinking

about every single- Yeah.

:

00:46:46,017 --> 00:46:49,737

… person's experience and making

sure that everybody has the

:

00:46:49,737 --> 00:46:51,127

fucking time of their life.

:

00:46:52,207 --> 00:46:55,547

Everybody, you're gonna have a hell

of a party if I plan your party.

:

00:46:56,547 --> 00:46:59,237

Well, uh, the way that I look at

things is something good always

:

00:46:59,237 --> 00:47:01,127

comes out of something bad, right?

:

00:47:01,207 --> 00:47:01,447

Yes.

:

00:47:01,457 --> 00:47:04,207

Like- … e- it, it's every experience.

:

00:47:04,247 --> 00:47:07,437

You, you can, you can gain

something from every experience.

:

00:47:08,097 --> 00:47:14,897

Well, yeah, I mean, I did tons of shit

that I would not have said yes to- Yeah,

:

00:47:15,137 --> 00:47:16,577

exactly … to please other people.

:

00:47:16,587 --> 00:47:16,617

Yes.

:

00:47:16,797 --> 00:47:21,897

And I got value out of

it one way or the other.

:

00:47:22,237 --> 00:47:22,567

Yeah.

:

00:47:22,587 --> 00:47:23,657

It was usually good.

:

00:47:24,657 --> 00:47:24,947

Yeah.

:

00:47:24,977 --> 00:47:28,017

So it's not all bad.

:

00:47:28,307 --> 00:47:28,967

Yeah, no.

:

00:47:30,367 --> 00:47:30,427

It just…

:

00:47:30,807 --> 00:47:31,177

Yeah.

:

00:47:31,577 --> 00:47:35,037

It's just that's- I- … that's where

we have to learn the difference.

:

00:47:35,617 --> 00:47:35,877

Yeah.

:

00:47:36,767 --> 00:47:37,177

I don't…

:

00:47:37,327 --> 00:47:40,067

To be clear, I don't

wanna go to the party.

:

00:47:40,797 --> 00:47:41,787

I just wanna plan it.

:

00:47:42,787 --> 00:47:43,277

Are you sure?

:

00:47:43,317 --> 00:47:44,567

'Cause you're a Leo rising.

:

00:47:45,467 --> 00:47:49,697

I don't wanna go to the pa- I

mean, I, I want to go to the party,

:

00:47:50,197 --> 00:47:54,507

like, with a clipboard in my hand

to manage the logistics of, but

:

00:47:54,507 --> 00:47:57,517

I don't wanna be in the party.

:

00:47:57,527 --> 00:47:58,097

So funny.

:

00:47:58,537 --> 00:48:04,827

And if I am in the party, I will exit

early without anyone's knowledge.

:

00:48:05,137 --> 00:48:06,957

Like, that's- The Irish goodbye?

:

00:48:07,057 --> 00:48:09,147

But I would love to plan your party.

:

00:48:09,147 --> 00:48:10,487

I love planning a party.

:

00:48:10,567 --> 00:48:13,667

I've got spreadsheets on spreadsheets

on spreadsheets of parties I've

:

00:48:13,697 --> 00:48:14,927

planned in my Google Drive.

:

00:48:15,927 --> 00:48:19,717

That is funny So Maybe I'll

start a side hustle after this.

:

00:48:20,977 --> 00:48:23,257

Oh yes, just put something

else on the, on your list.

:

00:48:23,257 --> 00:48:26,787

If you'd like me to plan your party, you

can contact me at erica@findyourkula.com,

:

00:48:26,927 --> 00:48:27,847

and just- Yeah, no problem.

:

00:48:28,847 --> 00:48:31,457

Erica, you might just start getting

the, "Can you plan my wedding?"

:

00:48:31,677 --> 00:48:36,437

Well- Oh my God … just keep in mind

she's in the greater Boston area, and she

:

00:48:36,447 --> 00:48:39,637

charges well because she knows her worth.

:

00:48:40,197 --> 00:48:40,657

Hmm.

:

00:48:40,717 --> 00:48:42,227

And that's exactly it.

:

00:48:42,257 --> 00:48:43,637

Yeah, yeah.

:

00:48:44,677 --> 00:48:45,267

All right.

:

00:48:46,187 --> 00:48:46,347

Mm-hmm.

:

00:48:46,347 --> 00:48:48,327

Well, another good conversation.

:

00:48:48,867 --> 00:48:49,167

Yeah.

:

00:48:49,167 --> 00:48:52,007

Any other last comments, anybody?

:

00:48:53,007 --> 00:48:53,257

No.

:

00:48:53,257 --> 00:48:57,887

I mean, I, one thing that I did wanna s-

mention that Erica brought up before is…

:

00:48:58,677 --> 00:49:01,917

'Cause it really is huge, it really

plays such a big part when you're

:

00:49:01,917 --> 00:49:03,327

a people pleaser, is resentment.

:

00:49:04,057 --> 00:49:04,297

Mm.

:

00:49:04,307 --> 00:49:04,827

Oh, yeah.

:

00:49:05,107 --> 00:49:05,137

Huge.

:

00:49:05,147 --> 00:49:09,247

Like how resentment builds-

Yeah … because of it, and it really

:

00:49:09,247 --> 00:49:11,397

doesn't help you or anybody else.

:

00:49:11,407 --> 00:49:13,707

Like, it really doesn't do

anything for you or anyone else.

:

00:49:13,727 --> 00:49:15,487

Like, it's an awful feeling.

:

00:49:16,297 --> 00:49:16,667

Yeah.

:

00:49:17,097 --> 00:49:19,037

That, that's definitely

a signal for me now.

:

00:49:19,117 --> 00:49:20,667

Whenever I feel it- Mm-hmm … I'm

like, "What's that?"

:

00:49:20,667 --> 00:49:21,947

Yeah, yeah.

:

00:49:21,957 --> 00:49:23,217

"Why is this here?

:

00:49:23,277 --> 00:49:24,767

What am I doing that's…"

:

00:49:25,107 --> 00:49:25,477

Yeah.

:

00:49:26,937 --> 00:49:27,447

Good, good, good call out.

:

00:49:27,447 --> 00:49:29,937

Stay tuned for our

conversation on boundaries.

:

00:49:30,937 --> 00:49:31,707

And control.

:

00:49:32,117 --> 00:49:32,677

Good way to avoid resentment.

:

00:49:32,677 --> 00:49:32,987

And control.

:

00:49:32,987 --> 00:49:33,477

Well,

:

00:49:34,477 --> 00:49:35,357

thank you everyone.

:

00:49:36,337 --> 00:49:41,287

We will see you on the next episode,

or- Thanks for being here … yeah.

:

00:49:42,287 --> 00:49:42,377

Yes.

:

00:49:42,377 --> 00:49:42,417

We'll talk at you.

:

00:49:42,417 --> 00:49:42,477

Thanks for listening, wherever you are.

:

00:49:42,477 --> 00:49:42,487

Soon.

:

00:49:42,487 --> 00:49:43,237

We'll talk at you.

:

00:49:43,707 --> 00:49:43,987

Yeah.

:

00:49:44,287 --> 00:49:46,027

Oh, yes, and more soon.

:

00:49:47,447 --> 00:49:49,817

Hopefully we'll have ways to, like…

:

00:49:49,857 --> 00:49:51,977

I mean, please come to findyourkula.com

:

00:49:51,977 --> 00:49:52,957

and chat with us.

:

00:49:53,117 --> 00:49:55,747

Um- Oh my God, yeah … but.

:

00:49:55,967 --> 00:49:59,047

And to be clear, Kula is K-U-L-A.

:

00:49:59,277 --> 00:50:00,627

We'll put it in the show notes.

:

00:50:00,677 --> 00:50:04,407

We'll add links so that you can come

join us in the community, 'cause we

:

00:50:04,407 --> 00:50:08,227

genuinely would love to hear your

stories and have real conversations.

:

00:50:08,227 --> 00:50:08,937

Yeah.

:

00:50:08,937 --> 00:50:09,787

Yeah, exactly.

:

00:50:09,787 --> 00:50:11,277

We don't wanna just leave it at ours.

:

00:50:12,277 --> 00:50:15,127

Bring everyone in Love you guys.

:

00:50:15,507 --> 00:50:16,507

All right, love you.

:

00:50:16,937 --> 00:50:17,497

Love you.

:

00:50:17,797 --> 00:50:18,367

Bye.

:

00:50:18,947 --> 00:50:19,617

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:

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